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Rebekah Markewich
@rebekahbethany

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Brought to you by ✨antidepressants✨ lol I mean- it isn’t wrong. A few weeks ago I realized that I had gone from being sad from losing the baby to actual depression. I could barely make new content because it felt impossible to run around in fields of flowers when I was so sad and tired. I’ve been depressed a few times in the past and knew that if I started antidepressants again I would be able to get over it much faster. My therapist compared them once with fixing a house. You can fix a house without scaffolding, but it is much harder. Antidepressants are the scaffolding that can make it easier for you to do the work. Sometimes they don’t help. I have had that happen in the past, but I didn’t give up and instead tried a different kind. I found one that works for me with no noticeable side effects. I don’t know why antidepressants are stigmatized so much. Would we tell someone with heart disease that they just needed to try harder and rely on medicine? Of course not. Even though I am a strong proponent for using them when necessary, I struggled with feeling like I wasn’t enough to get to a better place on my own. I thought I should pray more, try to think positively or just will myself to be happy. I kept hoping that the next month would be better until I looked back and realized how many months I had been immobilized. I am confident that they are starting to work now and I feel like I am emerging from a very dark cloud. I don’t feel like I am betraying myself to wear a pretty dress or do things that make me happy. It’s not gone and I know that some days are still going to be very hard, but I feel the light shining through the darkness. 🖤 #cottagecore #mentalhealthawareness #grief